The End Of The Rope

I woke up this morning at the end of my rope. 

    I swear I've tried to hold on, but I'm all out of hope

    There's been so many times when I took a wrong turn

    So many wrong teachings I've had to unlearn 

    All these years I've spent trying to build something good

    Working with tools that were broken in childhood

    Yes, I know all the things that you would say

    All the beautiful bullshit you'd use to tell me to stay

    You'd say people love me and need me around

    But we both know they'd live on while I rot in the ground

    You'd say there's a reason I've made it this far

    I should practice gratitude and thank my lucky star

    But maybe I'm still here as a sick cruel joke

    Or I'm too stubborn to drown so I continue to choke

    Or maybe the God that you worship as loving and kind

    Is really twisted and sick with an egotistical mind

    Let me show you all the list of gratitude I've made

    All The rainbows and butterfly's, and positivety I've displayed

    I always found things to appreciate in the midst of the storm

    Then watch as  the storm takes them away till it's become my norm

    You'd Tell me that hard times they come and they go

    You'd tell me I'm stronger than I believe to be so 

    but hard times keep coming with no reprieve In between

    And strength runs empty with no moments serene 

    So here I am at the end of my rope

    Tired, angry, defeated and all out of hope

    please know that I tried and wanted to be better

    But I've paid all my life and still I'm stuck as the debtor

    You might think that i took the easy way way out 

    But every way has been hard and clouded with doubt

    I can never catch up starting so Far behind

    Too Tired to go forward and no way to rewind

    Please don't stay angry and don't stay sad

    Please don't hate me or think of me bad

    I just couldn't find any strength left this time

    No place for a poet in a world with no rhyme

By Simple Sue

From: United States